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Friday, March 21, 2003, 08:54 a.m.
i miss mel... Thursday, March 20, 2003, 06:14 p.m.
......i wanna wish the world peace.....
cheersThursday, March 20, 2003, 05:54 p.m.
Hey, how are you?
What a messy week for me.... and for the world. Saturday I'm driving on the sulpur springs and all of a sudden a deer runs into the side of my car...... big dent and a cracked lens...... greeat..... saturday I wanted to see mel in the morning so I went to her place to drop off a Win for life ticket.... she likes them.. on the way home on the devil road..... my front pipe falls off! I gotta say, last night on the way home from Mel's I smacked myself.... Im gonna drive this girl nuts...... im just having a bitch of a time right now and im too insecure with a lot. I wish she told me she loved me more..... but how do you ask that...... you dont.... schools almost over and summers coming..... which is good for everything... she must love me to stay with me right now..... im a headcase and a drama queen and its gotta change... my parents do not stop yelling and giving orders too me..... and sometimes it makes me feel bad for refusing them... but they have been bothering me so much.... last weekend i told john i wasnt sure anymore about mel and i.... she told him the same.... i didnt even mean to say that the way i did.... i dont know about her i havent seriously asked.... i dont really want to... i love the girl.... and i always think... when a couple goes through a rough time that just makes them twice as strong coming out of it.... i think its accurate.... i know it will be alright..... now its thursday... jodie and I are going to do something tonight which is cool... I wish i could work bc i need $$$$$... anyway... i gotta get out of my house... i gotta get shit together with myself and start being me.... it feels good just writing that... and with mel... i love her.... simple as that...... and I think she loves me too [ :) }..... ok i know she does i just wanna hear it more... im a baby...... aww muffin.....
keep it real,
macTuesday, March 11, 2003, 10:32 a.m.
Hey hows life?
Its been awhile since Ive updated so here it comes. Right now Im at Mohawk, you know how much I love that. Im waiting to go to my psychology class and need to kill time. I resisted from calling Mel because I think sometimes she wants her space from me. Shes so awesome. Im conviced Ive found my partner I hope for good but thats always pending on her. I find myself getting too jealous lately and I cannot help it. I feel threatend still after all this lovely time. Shes made a friend named Kyle, I like friends, in fact I love having friends. I just hate the fact that shes attracted to him and that she would date him. It makes me sick to my stomach<----- is that ridiculous? I dont even know... all i know is I get worried. She wont believe it, I am no longer even looking at girls which is not normal for a guy. I dont want anything or most certainly anyone than her. I miss paul, someone dosent like him but also dosent really know him. I do Ive been talking to paul lately and it seems like he's one of my friends who cares about so much. Im looking forward to going to guelph this friday night. Boys night out! Cochren really dissappointed me this winter. Its like he completely forgot about me and did not even have the courtesy to remember his manners. Jons got a new girl which makes him happy so it makes me happy. Dave and I are calling eachother more and more now which is really cool and last night Sarah called me for the first time in I dont know how long and we had coffee. Linds and I are emailing eachother at least now and my sisters and I could be a lot closer. George is my older brother. I have so much respect for him and I always will have a spot in my heart for George. He has a little piece of it, the majority is owned by ms. melissa anne pyl. I dont know how I can make it clearer to her. I want to be with her, only her.... I guess I am anticipating summer. Summertime means no school, less obligations, more free time, which means up north. I think shes attracted to this guy for hios smarts, which makes me feel dumb BUT I have actually started to read more and work harder. I wanna be her pefect guy... not necessarily perfect as in perfection but perfect for her. Anyways, I have many plans for her this summer. Another thing, last night she said she does not know what would happen to us if I moved away. My feelings for her cant be forgotten nor replaced. If we were cities, districts, provinces, states, countries, nations, galaxies apart I would still give my everything to be with her in one way or another. Ok, I need to stop typing about this.... I guess I just wanna say. Lifes good. Will get better. I wanna play golf. Oh, and I love belle and misty :)
cheers,
matty c
ps. Im pissed about double cohortsSaturday, February 8, 2003, 03:40 a.m.
1 day til 9 months..... 9 months of the best thing that has ever happend to me... I fucked up hugu tonight.... and I cant sleep.. I can believe I hurt something so precious to me.... Mel I love you..... im sorry.... i have nothing to say....... im just going to go toss and turn now.....
no love,
mcSunday, January 26, 2003, 05:07 p.m.
hey,
every entry i make is related to mel in someway. I feel i keep fucking up, and its just from one thing to another. I dont mean to do things i do. :( So heres to another day. Hopefully tomorrow gets better.
mcThursday, January 16, 2003, 07:51 p.m.
I cant take it, my life needs change... and so i have the greatest girl in the world, we're gonna be together forever if i have choice!
Monday, January 13, 2003, 05:35 p.m.
Whats UUUP!
I just came to say... Mohawk sucks, im glad G is not leavin! and i miss someone special named mel, im in love.
Goodnight!
mcSunday, January 12, 2003, 04:33 a.m.
i love mel she loves me and my penis, and violence sucks.... also, how young is too young to know its true.... i dont believe in that mambo jumbo bull shit! Love is love and baby we've got it goin on!
Wednesday, January 1, 2003, 04:19 p.m.
Happy New Year!
I just woke up from nearly an all nighter. Im in the worst pattern of sleeping til at least 3. Last night was a pretty good night, except for a couple instances. I have to stop stupid arguments with Mel. She said she has never loved me as much as she does now, and the lady does not lie. Why am I so insecure then??? Probably just because I wonder what a girl like Mel is doing with me? She has everything that I and any other guy could ask for. I better stop questioning it or else I'll end up pushing her away. All in all im so happy with last night, I got to kiss my girl at the stroke of midnight and I got to sleep with her. I could be perfectly happy waking up next to her everyday. See we could sit together not say a thing and I would never be bored. Boredom is just not in my vocabulary with her. We just cant argue over nothing anymore. It makes me sad when shes sad and she gets sad. I hate myself when I hurt her. Im making an oath... no more dumb fights.... I love you mel.
Happy new year.
mcSunday, December 29, 2002, 04:40 p.m.
Its been too long,
Well, it fully worked out that night. Its like as time goes on and on I just get happier. Everytime I think Ive passed the limit of happiness.... I get surprised. Exams went well except for my math which Im not happy at all about. Who the hell tells 20 or so students they cant write an exam. December was all around an awesome month! I didnt see Mel that much in the first couple of weeks and it really got me down.... I dont know if that is good for me but Im happy with seeing her as much as possible. She makes me feel like I can accomplish anything with her around... I went 3 days without seeing her and I was feeling lost. So actually I didnt really like the first couple of weeks in December but the second half has paid up for it. After exams I tried to work as much as possible to make some christmas money. Ive been seeing Mel a lot but still not enough... yes thats right im pathetic. Oooh and I got to see Dave Matthews with Ingrass! We had so much fun that day... and Dave put on an amazing show. Also Jonny and I are as close as ever. I love it...... I officially now have my homeboy back. Im trying to convince him to live with me in September. How awesome would that be... Making breakfast for mel and jon. Id be in heaven. I will admit im protective of her, they make jokes with me because I had a dream that they were fooling around.... (blocking out the image)... I know its ridiculous... Im too insecure about us and I am trying to change that. I know ive got her and she knows I adore her feet and up (even though she hates feet). I just have found something profound, something I dont want to lose, something that makes me say..... wow, ive found her.... this is her... shes mine and Im sorry fellas anyone who has a problem with that id fight till my death for her (a bit extreme??? no... i would fight anything and anyone for her) Christmas was the best ive ever had. First the less enjoyable part... my fam, it was a decent day and everyone was happy. Im just sick of wise cracks, stupid agruments, talks about money..... thats all I ever hear. I hate it! I feel more at home at Mel's than I do here. I am going to save money for two reasons, a trip with mel! and rent money! I have to get the hell out soon. The best part of chrismas was giving Mel her gift.... okay and I love what she got me! haha.... She loves everything I got her... I know she does... but then again I could have got her just a card and she would love it... these are reasons why she so incredible. Rufus and Caboodle forever!... Her gift made me cry. She bought me the best thing I could have ever got from her. A ring, the same that she has.... symbolizes love... I havent took it off... aside from when I couldnt get it off but then I put it right back on.. my cologn I love and so does she... my tee gave me confidence... i am going to get accepted.... all about us.... i love it we're learning more and more about eachother (and I really do no dislike anything with her!! she wont believe me).. stuffed animal to add to my shrine around my bed of her but the ring made my christmas. New years is coming and we still dont know what we are doing.... Something will come up.... it always does..... anyways Im out,,, all i want to say is... yeeea~! last semester at mohawk, Im in love with the best girl I could have ever dreamed of and Happy New Year!
Stay Positive, Cheers
matty Saturday, December 7, 2002, 04:28 p.m.
hello,
I just got home from the gym/looking for my phone and the pita pit. Im full I ate a tuna pita which satisfied my hunger needs. I cant wait til thursday when I have nothing to do day after day except for shop, love life and of course my girl. :).......... All i want to do tonight is lounge around with her.... ill keep yea posted if it works out...
cheeeersWednesday, December 4, 2002, 12:06 p.m.
hey there,
Im at mohawk right now. Its so packed in this computer lab. Its common hour right now and I cant find Ferg or Linds anywhere, so I come to write in my journal. Im going shopping for christmas today with my love, shes picking me up :) Now that I have her, I dont know what I'd do without her. One thing I know is shes here to stay. I HOPE. It feels so great to be in love. Sweety I know you'll be reading this and its scary for me too but I love it to pieces... About how our worlds revolve :) I love her and I just wanted to share that for the hundredth million time which still isnt enough!... Matthew Coulter loves Melissa Pyl.. (our names even look good together) anyways Im out I feel I should socialize or try to find my friends. I just had to share this feeling that makes me feel like a "million bucks".... I love her
cheersTuesday, December 3, 2002, 02:51 a.m.
21 days i just noticed which means 3 weeks today!
hello there, i would just like to say.... sleeping alone is no fun. Tonight was an odd night but when all was said and done it was all good. Mel and I had a tiff tonight... she said somethings she regrets and i sometimes worry about not making sense it seems.. we love eachother tho.. its obvious when 2 young people are in a car on the side of the road working stuff out at 2am crying and holding eachother. The girl simply blows my mind. When shes near all my worries dont matter, my heart feels warmed, rufus wakes up (honesty is best). I just want to forget what she said tonight. It ripped my heart open. I love the girl so much that it makes me cry..... i know she did not mean what she said.. i dont believe that she meant it.. i can just hear her saying it... ill forget it tho.... anyways... I wish we could sleep next to eachother at night and in the morn.. one day we will. Im going to go soon and Ill dream about being with mel.. ive had a dream of us sleeping(zzz) together... I love that dream...... Im so tired.. i was going to do homework but nor i think ill just sleep....... Im so in love with you whatever you want to do is alright with me... that song reminds me of M.A.P...... ok i really need sleep now... i love her and i always will..... i have so much more to say nut i am nodding off...... she is my stength... thanks god for hookin this up,... i love you melissa.....
cheers
mc (zzz,zzz,zzz,zzz,zzz.............)
Monday, December 2, 2002, 04:26 p.m.
is everything always about money mom???Monday, December 2, 2002, 01:47 a.m.
Season Greetings!
I recieved a call today that scared the living shit out of me. Mel had a little accident, which I see as not being her fault at all. But I started shedding tears. I cant stand to hear of her in any sort of pain. I start to feel pain. I honestly think ive found the one im meant for. We just are so awesome together. I love her. I recieved another call from Gregory Eberhard..... it was so good to catch up with him.. he's doing well and still the same cool cat as always. Cochren called too and im picking him up from the airport dec 17 which i cant wait for.
Tonight after I left my baby's feeling all warm from her love and just her smile. I came home to take my dad to the bank. Afterward he asked me out for a hot chocolate. It was the first time my father and I have talked seriously in so long and he reminded me of how he truly he is an awesome person, friend and father. He's having troubles but he'll get through he always does. We talked about careers, life decisions, his health, my health, he told me he knows Im in love :), we talked about mel for awhile, we talked about jon, paul, cam, cochren, Georgie.... helped me realize I have some really solid friends!.... he gave me an idea for a job, he said something scary, he told me how he knew he time was over and that he was happy to be able to still be here with me that night but most of all he told me he loves me and hes proud of me.... I cried, then he cried, and we cried in tim hortons at one in the morning on a sunday night. I can say.... im a fortunate kid. Maybe ive had rough times but all in all i think it will be ok..... George always tells me that.... I miss him. We need a talk too!.... ok its 220 am so im going to end this bc im already anticipating seeing mel tomorrow night... we're gonna watch a movie, and we're gonna wrestle.. i love giving my love to her. Ok, ending words...... i love my girl, im in love with her and my heart feels stronger with her in it, i love my dad... he's the one who made me who ive become, i love my friends... i miss george... im also on a new workout plan..... every second day im at the gym again..... anyways im rambling...... i need sleep... im just gonna say it on here bc i do b4 bed anyways.... i love you mel......... :O)
cheers,
Matty CO CO (that was for ebbs)Friday, November 29, 2002, 01:29 a.m.
hey,
its 130 am and I cant sleep again... not that i've given it an honest effort. I just simply dont want to yet. Tonight I watched what turned out to be a wicked movie I thought. One flew over the cockoos nest was always keeping me waiting for what was next to come.... I had the chance to rub mels back in the mean time. She wasnt too happy tonight at all tonight, sometimes Im worried that its me getting her down somehow, I still have this notion in the back of my head Im gonna smother her.... its starting to go away finally ut it comes every once and awhile. It makes me sad to see her sad. I cant wait til exams are done and everyone feels that much more free. As for mel the most I can do is try to make her smile and make her happy, she deserves it... she works so hard and does so well... she deserves only the best.
Tomorrow I would really like to see George, he wants to go to Kingdom which would be cool but even if we just relax somwhere that would be just as great. I barely talked to him on tuesday which sorta sucked. Hopefully tomorrow we'll get together if not tomorrow then sometime soon. Im glad I got work off i got to see Mel. Another thing with her... I cant help having sexual thoughts about her..... like a lot of the time....... is this normal??? it has to be for me bc even when im not in the mood at all nor is she she can always get rufus on high end.... its nuts. Anyways.... Ill shut up..... I love the girl...... anyways I hope to see georgie and make mel smile soon...... im tired now...... i need some rest before a day of Math.... how lovely!
cheersWednesday, November 27, 2002, 05:30 p.m.
Hey,
So another busy day, and once again a lot of worrying about the future. Im so worried about not getting accepted next year that is makes me sick. Ahh well. Last night I went to see Harry Potter 2 with one Mel, george and his little sister Catina. I think on friday George is taking me to Kingdom. Quite a bit over the past while I havent been enjoying clubs as much as I used to. I dont have fun when I drink there and I compare all the girls to Mel and theres never a comparison with her:) Im just not a club boy anymore. Im reallly tired, exhausted in fact. I need a nap.. I always put a phone near my ear.... in case she calls.
cheersMonday, November 25, 2002, 05:40 p.m.
Hello,
Last night was my christmas staff party. I all in all was pretty happy about it, Cherly liked her gift, Stef bought me a really cool insense burner and Mel was with me. Harvey and Pam hooked up which was ironic because earlier in the night Mel and I were saying how good that would be. They're were a bunch of others who got together but I couldnt really care. Mel looked amazing as always and always had that pretty smile on her face (have I written how it gives me goosebumps) Just before I was about to take Mel home. Zach tried to wear my vest home. I ran out to get it came in and this creep was talking to Mel. I was already jealous but I thought he was a friend or a date of somebody there. I was about to walk over to see Stew when I started to pick up what his intentions were. I dont think anything has pissed me off as much as that did and thats right im protective. I started appaently giving the guy the worst death stare and Stew noticed what was going on. He called me over and said "I saw you eyeing this guy dude, is he all over your girl"... Steve thinks im kidding around or playing games when I tell him to move bc he was sitting next to her. Anyways I sat down the dude got the picture and left. Later and this afternoon I found out what he was saying and it makes me ill just thinking about it. Ive never wanted to hurt a person more than him, if he didnt lay off there was gonna be some nastynees coming his way. In fact I sort of regret not doing it to him earlier. I hate that man!!!!
ATTENTION : IF ANYONE HITS ON MEL IN MY PRESENCE I HAVE NO CHOICE BUYT TO SEVERELY HURT YOU or try to at least and I would give it all I've got.
I finally took mel home and the sweetie served me some chinese food. It was so good but I think also bc she put it together (does that make sense, it does to me). Then after I went back and that dirt bag was gone fortunately. I ended up having the best conversation with Phil. We never really talked to much but last night we had a blast. He's a really cool dude..... okay im cutting this short..... soo... phil and i chatted, harv and pam left, i drove Cheryl, Stew, Laura and Steve (he called me beautiful and when hes near I clinch my butt cheeks, its uncomfortable)then I went to bed and had a dream about a girl (gee i wonder who?), a beach and a kiss.... Im a driver tonight and Im gonna do something for mel.... I love you all... cheers
mcSunday, November 24, 2002, 03:07 p.m.
Hey im back.
So I went to see Mel. That was great, she always greets me with a kiss now and it makes my knees shake. Shes not feeling well so I may do a little something something for her. I came home and got yelled at again then got an order to do something for my mother. I swear Im not the son, I am the slave. It always gets me unhappy to get yelled at. I feel like sometimes I take too much shit and I dont do anything about it and it eats at me and then I just become grumpy around the ones I love all the time. I have so much homework to do and I have no urge to do it which is going to make it 10 harded to do. All I want right now is to be laying in my bed, sleeping, with Mel on my shoulder that would be bliss. Im so calm when we sleep(zzz) together. I came upstairs grumpy as hell, saw a picture of her smile and it made it all better. I guess this entry was a tribute to one Melissa Anne Pyl. Feel better baby, Im rubbing your back later.....
SalutationsSunday, November 24, 2002, 11:20 a.m.
Hello to you,
This is my first ever entry. I woke up today and started to write my thoughts down on a sheet of paper... If you know me, you also know how incredibly slow my writing is. So this is my new journal I guess.
Lately my life has been a rollercoaster filled with mixed up and confused emotions. I feel so insecure with everything for the first time in my life. I cant stand mohawk and I certainly dont feel like I belong there. I have a few friends who attend there with me and I have met a couple nice people. For the most part its not for me, right now I dont really know what is. Anyways my name is Matt, and I live outside Hamilton in a nice neighbourhood called Ancaster. I have a dog, a bestfriend or two, and a girl who has my heart every minute of the day(she just called me we have an esp thing goin on). Shes amazing. Thats one thing that always puts a smile on my face. I just lost my thought when she called, I get to go see her. I like now I have something to write in.... thank you web people. So all in all Im a ancaster guy who loves his friend, loves and adores his girlfriend.. Ok i must be off now....
Cheers
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